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Smell me bleed kool aid dreams

cut
out
of a piece of paper
I am
No ones paper doll
Cut up in pieces
From a paper cut
I am torn
my flesh barely open
My mind pounds the shore
like salt in an open wound
I only sting and deserve more
A mirage in the desert
A miricle is in the air
I am cut and torn
Not real
I am just lifes paper doll

Bob Jenkens


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Earth quakes volcanic eruptions

God bless Nepal! Us all!

Take heed in the warning From the sea and the skies
the rocks and the tides
The day approaches
when man is defenseless
and forced to Cowell and hide
To only be destroyed
cast into tar pits and buried alive
some of us will rot on the ground
no one left to bury the dead
just like in the stories we've read

I wonder what the dinosaurs wrote?
With their little arms.

bob Jenkens

I write in a 75 cent composition book. There might be a bunch of poems and then an estimate for a roof job. I wrote this piece along time ago. I tried posting it before but its hard on my phone.. then we have a earth quake in Michigan and I feel inspired to share this.  I'm at stakes eatery on my lunch break posting it now. Scratched on and scribbled on like I know the difference between write and wrong.

Erosion of Humanity

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Race for humanity

Why does everything
have to be a race?
Turtle against the hair
ford against chevy
Color against religion
My God verses yours.

Bob Jenkens


I'm no terrorists
Even if it's hard to resist
The politics are terrorist
Or maybe I mean hypocrites
What can I change?
Me? I'm just me look and see.
I won't play politics.


bob jenkens
Kindle direct pub
what colors humanity

xoxoxo

It takes alot of peace
to make a whole
alot of decent people
To make the world
a piece of humamity goes a long way.


bob jenkens
(What colors humanity)

what colors racisim?

How do you spell Panellipi?
Is it with two l's
and two beautiful brown eyes?
Penelope not a real name
she's a fairy tale
even still
subject to racism

  Beautiful olive skin
the sweetest little voice
"You have to write this story for me "
but your beautiful Penelope
like a double rainbow
"You don't know" Penelope says
"what its like to have brown skin"
"or this way that I talk"

  I'm a roofer Penelope
i do have brown skin
a poor person
painted by the sun.
under hard labor
i do know
what its like to be looked
down on
even from a roof top
when i shine up
people still look down on me
to extinguish my eminate glow.

bob jenkens
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it doesn't pay to be homeless

stupid is as stupid does

Am I stupid or something?

In my previous experience in radio broadcasting I worked as news director at q 95 country in Adrian Michigan. My favorite news story to write was based on the facts. That made it easy. I would broadcast the news on two live radio shows twice an hour at the: 30 breaks was just a tease. Then after the seven a.m hour news breaks close at 7:06. I raced to the Adrian cities police station to read and take notes from new reports that were written overnight. Then I raced to lennawee counties sheriff’s department read news reports from overnight incidents that sheriffs had responded to. Then went back to the station took my notes from both law enforcement agencies and put together my news broadcast for the 8 o’clock hour. It was a race. Facts spoke fast. At 7:30 a.m I’d Tease a story for the 8 o’clock hour. Sheriffs responded to a home invasion on forester road overnight. City police report a shooting in the Erie street area overnight. “More details at 8”. Now you have 28 minutes to write the story. There’s no time to investigate a story. The police reports were facts to write on. Or are they? Everyday there were new stories new facts. It was the same race every day. (I wrote the poem “job related stress” at the radio station). I remember seeing a police report at the sheriff’s department. A bomb threat at Addison schools. Called in and specified a specific part of the school. After a search turned up nothing. The sheriff and superintendent Geoffrey kirsch decided the threat was a hoax and weren’t going to take any actions to protect students. They obviously didn't write in the police report that they weren't going to tell anyone. I ran the story at the tease with details at the top of the hour not giving any thought of the kids that were on buses on their way to school. By my 8 o’clock news I’d been contacted by the sheriffs and the superintendent of the schools telling me not to run the story again. Bus loads of kids are showing up at school crying and afraid to get off the buses. At a special school board meeting sheriff Germond and Geoffrey kirsch tried to put the blame on the media saying if I hadn't run the story no one would have known no better. Parents stood for me told them they were glad I ran the story like I had. They had no right to decide on their Childs safety. Not even tell them of a possible threat to their children? What if there had been an actual threat? And their children were being driven into an actual threat? Those kids are all grown up now. I’m sorry. I apologized personally to the sheriff. I received a personal invitation to his retirement Christmas party. I did attend. Geoffrey Kirsch did not invite me to his early retirement.

It May have been stupid of me but I think it will serve some purpose I don't see yet. I didn't apply for the news director position. It was thrown in my lap. I tried but I wasn't good at it.
Has to be some purpose God wanted me to see.

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Columbia apology

I wonder if any of my teachers ever pulled my parents to the side and told them they thought something might be wrong with me. I can hardly remember growing up. Bits and pieces. I don’t remember having a speech problem. But I did run into Tom Tababta At the country market and even grown up he teased me. Studdard when I shook his hand and introduced myself. “sssscccooottt Cacaclllaarkk”. I spelled his name wrong UN purpose. Brought back bits and pieces. Being bullied is on my bucket list to write about. But today I’m trying to remember what was so bad David Crenshaw and I planned to run away. Our little kids minds were going to be like tom and huck build a raft and exit from the east end of beautiful Clarklake to where ever our little minds imagined. I can remember being grounded to my bedroom for at least two years. 5th and 6th grade. I was allowed to go to school. I wasn’t grounded for trying to run away but because I was doing badly at school. I was a terrible kid. “I’m Sorry”. David moved to Brooklyn. It became my plan to run away till it was exposed by my mom finding a duffle bag of food I had been stashing for the escape. I don’t remember what was so bad. I think it was being misunderstood. I remember talking with Brian Miller. “My parents wouldn’t get so mad at me if they just understood me”. Could no one understand me cause I wasn’t ticking right? I don’t know. I was always a small kid. So I was picked on and bullied. Maybe that’s why I wanted to run away. You ever just want to crawl under a rock? Some meds might have helped several teachers perform their job. Had the teachers known I was being lodged in my bedroom like a prisoner…. I don’t know.. I am me. I accept responsibility for everyone I’ve picked on. I don’t remember what I did to you “I’m sorry”. Kim Campbell, Brian Cochran, Corey? from Hyde road. Jeff Rhoda I’m sorry. I seen you at the Tibbs Pavilion and you wouldn’t shake my hand. I was rotten to you and You stirred my memory. “I’m sorry”. Not trying to put stuff on my dad. He watched me being bullied he told me “fight back.” If someone gives you shit whip their ass. “If you don’t think you can whip them” “Pick something up and hit'em with it.” I think I bullied on you guys because I could because you were younger. “I’m sorry”. You know you don’t grow out of some things. And as I drove past Michigan international speedway I thought why didn’t I punch Tom tabada right in the face as I shook his hand and he mocked me? He wouldn’t have seen it coming. Kim Campbell, Amy Kellie, and Marcie King I picked on you because crushed on you. “I’m Sorry”. My battery is failing me. Quickly I’m sorry to Mrs. foster. My mind could not do algebra. So I made your class harder on you and my classmates. I’ve never been hauled to the office so fast. I’m sorry! I don’t know that I was ever rotten to my 4th grade teacher Mrs. Robold. I do remember her sitting me down in a chair when all the other kids went out for recess. She sat me down and told me “you are going to have to learn to read”. Fourth grade shouldn’t I have been reading? My dad says he dropped out of school at 12 years old. Says he had slured speech and kids picked on him so bad he just quit going. That was my plan too. I remember how afraid I was in class to be called on to read out loud in class. Thank you Mrs. Robold! I do a little writing now. My kindle video includes four poems
I’ve written and recited by me.
I read scripture at mass, out loud.
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The Bucket List

The bucket list

 Is it a real bucket or a real list? I have no life threatening prognosis.

However anxiety builds and I’m compelled to write.  It’s what I feel I have to do.

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 Here I sit writing my bucket list. On a bucket as I ice fish.

Does it matter what I see or have seen happening in my lifetime?

 I don’t know what’s what or who’s who. But I wish you could all see the way I do.

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I use to fish in my dreams or fall asleep thinking of going fishing.

Anymore I don’t dream.  Instead I fall asleep thinking of what I should write.

I have 8 or 9 things I’d like to write about. I don’t know what order they go.

Overwhelmed? Why do I feel I need to write anything?

I can hardly read.  I can read of course……  It just seems I forget

 From the top of the page to the bottom.  Somewhere in the middle I had to read a sentence

3 times to understand what it meant.  So why do I feel like I have an obligation to write.

I feel like I have a story to tell but just like I read I get lost when I write…

My poems are inspired by experience in my life.

It’s my bucket list!

Man I wish these fish would bite.               

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              Bob Jenkens   

Humanity (believe you me)

Quite simply put
People need to believe
Whatever they need
To live in peace with themselves
To save this planet
From our own selfish greed
No hate in believing
Peace could be
Believing in you
And believing in me!


Bob jenkens

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coin star Christmas

Maybe I should make a Will write for food sign and take my struggle to the streets.

Every Wal-mart I've been to has a coin star machine. I've used one many times. You go around your house and car to find every piece of change you can find. You put it into the coin star machine and it counts it. Takes its share and gives you a voucher to take to a register. You can get your dollars to go buy candy or beer but in my experience I’m buying diapers or food. It’s my money but the coin star machine helps provide for my struggle. Live to fight another day right? I've seen other people use the coin star machine. Seen the embarrassment on their face from having their struggle forced into public. Then passed them in the store spied into their cart to see bottled water, food or something else you know they severely needed.  Makes me wish so bad that I had some extra money to give to help them. Just some money could give them hope. 

when your struggling so bad someone reaching out from behind you in line is divine intervention.

They've obviously brought their life savings to buy some small commodity and what will I do when the diapers run out this time? Next time I take the bottles back. That’s what I did. And I pray for a roof job to fall out of the sky on me.  I can roof a house by myself in a week. Now being a single dad   I pray for a baby sitter as well.  If I looked down and found a twenty dollar bill I would thank God. And since I don’t ever seem to have an extra twenty. I do say a prayer for the people I see with my very same struggle…. Just to survive.

Prayers 

God Bless
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Bullied homeless by professionals in a nutshell

Anyone know what to do when a 911 call has been fabricated and changed by Sheriffs? Help.

In March Lenawee District Judge Laura Shadler scolded me as she evicted me and my 3 year old son from our house.  “Mr. Clark single moms raise their children by themselves everyday you need to get it together!” My mom was with me. She raised her hand and judge shadler let her speak. She told the judge “I don’t stick up for Scott often, but this county will not help a man like they will a woman”. The judge agreed with her.  I wasn't sure what to say there’s a lot more I wish I had said.  I told her “I commend single moms everywhere.”  “Truth is your honor this is my child he’s my responsibility. I didn't find out about him until he was almost 3 months old.( Lenawee county children protective service contacted me to tell me I needed to take a dna  test . I asked if the baby was in danger and I was told “No he’s not”.   ) I told the judge this rent money I owe isn't current rent I've paid over a thousand dollars over my rent in the last year trying to catch up. I got behind back when I found out I was a new dad.”  Just like I found out about my new son I found out his mom was a heroin addict up stairs in Judge Greg Iddings court when children protective service removed him from her and placed him in my custody.  I continued telling judge shadler how cps tried using the baby as a tool to sustain mom’s sobriety. They scheduled visits with us and would choose 3 days a week when I would be required to bring Gavin to Adrian to a park, McDonald's or DHS. They would swab his mom for drugs as any condition. If she wasn't going to pass she would say she didn't have a ride and they would tell me I had to make the visit up. I never missed a visit.  This went on for ten months your Honor “That’s when I got behind it drove me into the ground”.

 She concurred with Barb Nelson that I had paid her rent over and above since she bought  the trailer park in February. I asked the court for a motion of discovery to have Barb show me where she bought the debt from the previous owner. (phil French). Judge Shadler told me” that was none of my businesses. She then asked barb if she wanted to add to any dollars for anything else. Barb told her she wanted to add 10 dollars a month for my dog which hadn't been included.  “Mr. Clark” the judge said. “Didn't I sentence you to probation for attempted obstruction of justice? You’re not supposed to have a dog.”  (This is when I was almost held in contempt). I stood up and told her “no that’s not true you’re Honor” You signed the release papers”. My mom’s next to me trying to get me to sit down. I look to mom and tell her “no mom, let’s get this on the record”.  I turned back to the judge. I told her “your wrong your honor. To even be talking about this. It’s not why we’re here today. I’m being evicted from my home today. Do you want to talk about the 911 call you fabricated to produce the crime you just mentioned?” She told me I was about to be held in contempt.  With no attorney I sat down let the judge take my home.  Michigan law gives the owner of a trailer 90 days to move their home when evicted from a mobile home park. I asked her about that she denied that request and gave me 10 days to be out of my house. 

  About the recorded 911 call I made to the Lenawee county sheriff’s office. My name is Scott Clark.  A Specs Howard graduate I have a degree in broadcasting. I've worked at Q-95 country, mix 102.5. I write poetry and I like to produce them in audio. I use a program called cool edit pro. It allows me to mix recordings so I put music behind and sound effects. I've had productions featured on the smashing pumpkins web page. The cool edit program lets you visualize words.  If you pop a p you can see it. We used it at the radio station to produce commercials. If there was a swear word in a song we could high light it and make it play the bad word play backward thus in audible.

 I was involved in an incident with Lenawee county animal control, Deputy David Borton on July 25. He took my dog who is my good best friend. He also was threatening to take my baby. Six days later I was arrested for assaulting a police officer. You know as well as I do if you assault an officer you go to jail. They don’t wait six days. State police were there as well and took my complaint of assault against deputy borton.  I foia requested the 911 call  because I know audio and with my computer I can separate a room full of noises. It was my intent to show what really happened. When I got the 911 request it’s obvious it’s been altered. It has a music bed roll placed on it. The properties on my cool edit pro program says there’s 16 possible splices in the call. It identifies the changes were made August 1^st the day I was arrested.  With my audio knowledge you would think I could easily have this case dismissed. During the incident deputy took my dog. He practically pic maneuvered me and my 15 month old baby with my dog in the back of the truck. He was threatening to take my baby as he raced toward me coming up my drive way. I don’t even know what he’s raging for. I called 911. The dispatcher put me on hold. I had my baby on my hip and the phone in my hand. I held the phone out and told the deputy what the dispatcher said to me “your gonna have to talk to my sergeant.” That’s when deputy borton smacked my phone in my hand. It took me six months to get my dog back. I had two court appointed attorneys’ quit me because I insisted we use the 911 call. And they insisted Judge shadler would not let that into the court room. Attorneys’ John Glazier and Erick kiaser are incompetent. I had to raise 3000.00 dollars to get a lawyer from out of town. When I retained him I told him my number 1 priority was to get Mr. Sparky wags back. I’m a roofer now and I bet Sparky and I have roofed 100 houses. He doesn't do anything. He just lays there and watches me. He always knows when it’s lunch time and when it’s time to go home. My daughter Zoe use to think Sparky only knew three words or phrases, Hot dog, outside and I Love you. Sparky listens better than most kids and having him taken from me was a crime. My paid attorney got my dog back if I would agree to plead guilty to the lesser charge of attempted obstruction. I did and got sentenced to probation 2800.00 in fines restitution and for the two paid court appointed attorneys that quit me.  Almost 6 thousand dollars and I’ve just been given a baby to take care of by myself. I wish I had been able to tell the judge that. I still have never gotten a child support check or even a pack of wipes from Gavin’s mom. Even when I was on unemployment Lenawee county friend of the court kept taking money from my checks even though I had the baby 24/7. Judge shadler says “get it together Mr. Clark”.  Can’t she see what the sheriffs and her have done is take my home. I recorded phone conversations with lieutenant Aungst and lieutenant ewald. I tell ewald “you guys are gonna be on  Nancy grace before this is done”. He laughs and says it won’t be the first time. Calls me back five minutes later and says “I want to give you the heads up this 911 tape has been altered”. “I don’t know why anyone would do this he said”. I replied “to make it look like something different happened than what really happened”. The lieutenant replied “ I can’t even argue with that. I’m looking at it.” Judge laura  told me “Michigan law lets her decide what happens to my dog” no matter what. So I dropped the 911 stuff and got my dog back. I still have all the recordings and finish probation next month. Sparky and I are back to work. Don’t have a place to live yet. Work is not the same without him. Glad he’s back. What should I do???? Or have done??
 Look at my video "a shower of rain". you'll see sparky gettin his teeth brushed and just laying around my job sites.

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