Food stamps and public assistance " if it bleeds it leads"

Food stamps government assistance nothing has been easy for Gavin and me. I've had him since he was 5 months old. We were forced to get put on food stamps when I got him. At the time I was very appreciative they were our livelihood. I was on unemployment and I got a check for $340  twice a month. And get this Lenawee County Friend of the Court started taking $30 of each check to pay for Gavin's child support and I had him! I was taking him to the Department of Human Services to do these supervised visits with Gavin's mom three times a week .  She was on methadone and they were using the visits to drug test her. If she couldn't pass the test she wouldn't come and they would make me reschedule. She's showing up to visits with needle holes in the tops of her feet. I can't believe these professionals are doing this to this baby and me. " we can't throw Chrissy away" that's what they told me. I told them they needed to stop taking money from my unemployment checks. They said someone had to pay for Gavin's insurance. So I told them I needed some help.  They told me they had to keep Gavin in Chrissy's name to pay for her methadone. But they could give me food stamps. I was glad to get them even though pulling out a bridge card is embarrassing. Writing about it is even worse. When you receive Food Stamps they are for food not taxable products. I would watch as I drove by the grocery store to see who was working at the IGA because some of the workers would let me get diapers on my Bridge Card.
  Like I said nothing has been easy on Gavin and me. I told DHS look what you're doing to this woman on this methadone she's a wreck.  They told me she had a court date Thursday and they thought I should come to it. In the hallway before her hearing they gave me a piece of paper with the allegations against her. 28 allegations oh my God as I read she was put on methadone in January because she dropped dirty for opiates.  Gavin was born April 19th so she was 6 months pregnant doing heroin? All her parental rights were removed. She ended up fleeing the state and then they put Gavin in my name. So now DHS sends me Chrissy's mail and I get these Pages where she's been getting gas mileage? Well yeah they were giving her $28.60 a day to drive to Jackson and get the methadone. Nothing has been easy on Gavin and me.  Christina ended up in jail she did several months so when she got out I gave her a second chance because I knew she was clean. It never goes away and I'll never understand it. There were times she sat me down in a chair face to face and wanted to have a rational conversation about her going away for the weekend to her dad's to do heroin and she wanted to take Gavin with her. We're not even going to talk about this if you want to go do heroin pack your s*** and go! "No"  she would tell me and expect some kind of explanation. I'm not good at explanations especially when I'm right and you're wrong. She's learned there's no sense in trying to talk to me. Just pack your stuff and get down the road. /relapsing I'm sorry if I can't understan or sometimes I could be so mean but I never put a rig in the girls arm and obviously I got some Forrest Gump love for my Jenny.
  Gavin is taking her leaving really good. This is the third time. It's been three years since the last time so he don't remember life without her. Three weeks without hearing a call from her can make a kid realize things real fast.

We made up Gavin's Christmas list the other night and he said to me I bet Mom don't get me anything for Christmas I told him he's probably right last time we went a whole year without even hearing from her.

Bob Jenkens aka Scott clark
This is Gavin's picture on the front of my Kindle Direct book will write for food that I published in 2014.
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One day?

 One day I'm going to write something down and it's going to go viral people are going to start sharing it talking about it one day I'm going to give up this tool belt go all in grab up my pencil and write one thing down
Pray for me
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Simple Man Lynyrd Skynyrd

My momma told me when I was young she said sit beside me my only son and listen closely to what I say cuz if you do it'll help you some sunny day.

And just like that I was crying.
Gavin and I were riding in the truck with the radio on and when I noticed the song making me cry I looked over at him and there he sat wiping his little eyes I reached up and shut the radio off.
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Relapsing

I'm ignorant to the drug she does. I haven't heard one word from her in over 2 weeks Gavin's mom. Two nights before she left she sat on the couch and nodded out after she drank one beer and I was too stupid to even know. I tried to get her to go to bed I took a picture of her and then I was showing it to her telling her look at you I'm going to post this picture of you if you don't get up and go to bed. I never considered I thought she was just tired from work I drew a mustache on her face and took a selfie with her. Two days later I get a text message saying I'm going to have to get Gavin off the school bus she's gone.
Sad thing is this is the third time I don't know why I take her back.
I'm going to need some World intervention.
 Last time we went one whole year without even a phone call from her.
I'm going to need some World intervention not to let her back in!
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Why. " will write for food"

I have no doubt in my mind
That someday
I will affect the lives of many people in a positive way
That someday
My life will open up and flourish
That's why I survive.

Bob Jenkens

She is "If it bleeds it leads"

Who she is
Is not
Who
She has pretended to be

To see me
For who I am
And pretending to care

Who says she is
Who she will ever be
At the bottom of the roots
Of her whole family tree...

Bob jenkens

 Just you and me Gavin
Again

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Three strikes you're out" if it bleeds it leads"

She did the best
Thing
She could do for us
 Be herself
A magician
With an amazing
Disappearing act
More like a
Heroin addict
In disguise
See Me Now
I'm an illusion
A matter of time
Relapsing
She did the best she could
For us
disappearing


Now it's up to me to not let her reappear

Happy birthday to me
Bob Jenkens

it doesn't pay to be homeless less than minimum wage

Pretend

Pretend I am your pillow
Hold me down with your cheek
Breathe on my nipple
Play music on my washboard
Taste My Flesh
Wanting you
All ways

     P.s note spelling
    That's A L L ways
    Sweet dreams

Bob Jenkens

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OMG! "If it bleeds it leads"

Her eyes are
Marilyn Manson blue
But they're real
They say come
Inside me
And feel the real
Difference  Between
Love and drugs
Between
Lies and devotion
Over
Time and faith

Her eyes are
Blue as any
Contact lens
Could portray

But they're real!